Linus,

Sorry it's been a while since I've written you. I admit that I've been pretty lazy with e-mail and that's the main excuse for why I haven't been able to get my ass up to do anything. I'm tired now so this is going to be a spontaneous e-mail. Anyways, how's your summer been going? Mine's been ok. I think this is actually the first summer in a long time when I actually have been looking forward to school. You see, my company assigns us work through projects, so once they've run out of projects for us to work on they just send us home till the next time they need us. So far, I've been out of work for a while. I spend my days sitting at home and reading. Ivan and I have started making a model car, so he comes over from time to time to work on it with me. I go out with friends sometimes, but thinking about starting a new chapter of my life at umich consumes my most thoughts. My mom and I are almost finished buying all my dorm things and I've picked out which laptop I'm going to purchase. Even though everything seems to be ready (including my mindset), there's a part of me that feels so uneasy about moving away. There are only a couple months left, and I'm worried about how my parents are going to be keeping up without me. Really. I'm not sure if you've heard about Auntie Judy lately, but she calls the house a lot in need of talking with my mom. I wonder if anything goes wrong, it might turn out the other way around. I was looking through your blog recently, and I really enjoy reading about what you've got to say. There are two entry's I especially like. One is your most recent entry, and the other is one that you wrote some time ago. Being an only child, there have been countless times when I wish that there was someone else experiencing the same as me -- family-wise. However, in reality, it always turns out that I have to face things alone. I wonder, very sefishly, if my parents are going to be lonely without me...and believe it or not I can already say that I will be lonely without them at college no matter how many times I've stood near the statement, "the best thing about college is going away from home." The best part I liked about your entry was at the end. "Loneliness seems inevitable, but if you look carefully and listen intently, you'll notice that you're never without someone. It's only when we stop giving and receiving love that we are alone." This is very true. The second entry that caught my eye, was the entry about you and your friend Jennifer. It was one of those stories that everyone has lived. I can think of so many friends that I've shared this story with (in different variations of course). The fact that we're all leaving to go our own ways just seems to make it relevant. So, I'm looking forward to school...just not too much. I'd just like to thank you for your blogs! Haha... I know it's so nerdy, but I figure you'd appriciate it from time to time if someone said that! Well, take care Linus!
Lysis, Gina

Compleananno Romantico. Be grateful for all the friends that you have, cherish them, and hold them close.

Yesterday night, Ivan and I were told to save time to hang out with Jill, Jerry, and Andy. So, around 7-ish we arrived at Jill's house only to be greeted by our server. He lead us into a room closed off from the rest of the house by long, purple curtains. As he held the curtains aside for us, I curiuosly poked my head inside the dark room to see what awaited us. To my surprise, Ivan and I found a table set for two, roses, and candles ~ carefully lit by our server . Once we were seated, melodies of Jay Chao and various Asian ballads played in the background, and I looked from across our table in disblief and smiled. Seriously, I was so touched! Next, our server came out again and brought us our menus, water, refreshing Sangria, and some garlic bread to start off our dinner. Ivan and I chuckled when one of the cooks angerily yelled at him from the kitchen. Ahh...only Chinese chefs could be so kind. We were later fed a delicious fresh salad, and our main course: Chicken in a creamy sauce over shell pasta. The pasta melted in my mouth, and eventually I was so full that I regret that I could only finish some of the ice cream dessert served last.

The surprise dinner was so thoughtful and sweet! Thank you so much Jill, Jerry, and Andy! I won't forget this =)

I feel relieved. I just came back from Ann Arbor yesterday. After driving 3 hours straight, I collapsed at church and was relieved that I was finally home. The registration craziness is finally over! I was able to get that Asian American Studies class that I wanted so badly! I woke up at 6:45am and got to Angell Hall around 7:30am. At 8:30am, a bunch of us ran to computers like a mad heard of cattle let out from an over-packed stable...and BAM! I got that class! Currently my first semester schedule is this:

Mon, Tue, Wed, Thu: French 231
Tue, Thu: Philosophy 232
Mon, Wed: Asian American Studies 214
Mon, Tue, Thu: Calc I 115

Pretty kick-ass! No class on Friday!! =)

Real quick. Hey you guys...sorry that it's been such a long time since the last time I blogged in this journal. I know some of you are just dying to hear about what's been going on with me..or atleast dying of boredom and want to read something Well, here I am, hailing from the University of Michigan...my future home and college. I'm here for orientation..and so far things have been pretty hectic. I've been constantly meeting new people as well as going from meeting to meeting! *sigh* I just finished the most stressful process. One thing I've learned about Michigan is that it's soooo frustrating to register for the classes you want. A bunch of us in LSA spent a couple hours just planning what we want for this coming fall. I'm nervous about not getting a course at the top of my list: Asian American Studies. The problem you ask? There's only one space left. Suddenly, all my new friends have become my new enemies. I'm not fretting though..just praying extremely hard. I officially register for my classes tomorrow morning bright and early at 8:30am. This is it you guys! Haha..hope I can wake up!

You were sitting at work, listening to music and typing away. Everything was going smoothly until a familiar song started to play. You haven't listened to this song for the longest time, but something about it made your mind start to wander.


"never knew i could feel like this,
like i've never seen the sky before..."

You don't remember sharing this song with anyone...you never listened to it with him before, you two never talked about it, but it reminded you of him anyways.
It's amazing how your mind can suddenly drift off to places you don't want to touch again. To places you want to forget about - or should forget about. Your mind brings you away from the best you've ever had. You start thinking about a second chance. You start thinking about why certain things happen. You find yourself sitting on a bench looking out at the sun setting on the bay. The wind fingers through your hair, as you slowly turn you head to see him walking towards you. He doesn't recognize you at first, but has been admiring you from a distance. No words are exchanged. He sits down, and you watch your worries disappear from the sky together.


"want to vanish inside your kiss... everyday i love you more and more."

Then you realize that what you're experiencing and living now is what is really worthwhile. You question yourself. This daydream is just a daydream. Meaningless compared to reality. The song quietly ends, a challenge you have overcome. You know that he'll be back soon. He's thinking about you right now. And before you know it, you are back in your cubicle staring at a screen. There's no reason to feel hurt anymore. You're in good hands.